Time to Move...On

Well, things are getting easier as far as my perspective on friends and relationships go. I have decided this...it is time to start over! Yes, a few friends will stay the same, but a new me will mean new relationships. What do I mean by a new me?
Well, my mindset is changing a little. I used to take so much responsibility and ownership in my relationships and that is not fair...to anyone.
So, from now on, I can only be me. I am 30- happily married with two children. I like to have a good time and those times are meant to be shared. I am on a quest for REAL relationships...those built on honesty and respect. The types of friendships where you know the other person will be there at 2 in the morning- when things are not great- and the type where you can have a cup of coffee at 2 in the afternoon- when things are going great! I want the type of relationship where the other person knows that I am there and I know they are there. There has to be balance...I have a family and a career...but there are still aspects of my life that can be shared with others. I am reconnecting with some people from high school and we will see where that goes. I have a couple of friends here and they are awesome...just trying to figure things out. Some of my favorite shows and movies- the Golden Girls and Steel Magnolias- all show women who have had these lifelong relationships...I want that!!!

Friends

Maybe because I have just turned 30- not sure- but I really feel that my eyes have been opened lately. I am looking for friends who feel comfortable enough with themselves to "just be" in my presence. I am not looking friends who can only operate in a crisis-nor am I looking for friends who are afraid to be around in the midst of a crisis. Just honest people to hang out with, talk to, and share this life journey with. Is that possible? I know I am moving--but I am not gone yet! I am asking God to show me people to share life with and have some good times with in the process. Go out to dinner, movies, share my home with, the list goes on!

painting is acceptance

Yesterday, I went to Lowe's and bought some paint. To many, that is not a big deal, but to me it is. You see, after nearly ten years, I am painting my house in order to be able to sell it. Buying the paint was actually kind of fun and I actually started painting last night. The reality is that we are moving. We are to be in Albuquerque by January 10...wow! There is much to be done. I received a relocation package yesterday from Albquerque and I musy say that there will be all kinds of opportunities out there. I am leaving an awesome church and some awesome friends though. The girls are being awesome about this. They are looking forward to the move so much more than I could have imagined. God is using them as my role model with all of this. That is what is so beautiful about all of this...the girls are helping me paint. They are in this process all the way and I couldn't ask for anything else.

My girls

My girls, Christina and Rachel, have totally changed my life. Right now, they are nine and four. They keep me on my toes and and make me smile each day. I want to be a better woman because I know they are watching. I want to leave a legacy to my daughters that will last long after I am no longer here. I never understood how humbling it could be to be a mother, but each day I am reminded that God chose ME to be their mother. I am blessed beyond belief!

Where He Leads Us

Well, this is my first post on here. I guess what is biggest on my mind right now is that my husband is gone for the next six weeks and that I need to be working on getting our house ready to sell. I realize that not a whole lot of people know this, but we are going to be moving to Albuquerque, New Mexico at the end of the year and I am trying to discern how I feel about it. Chet is Air Force and I know the slogan- Home is where the Air Force sends you. Chet and I have been married for ten years now and I will go where the job sends us. I am just a little overwhelmed about moving--there is so much to do. I am not looking forward to "officially" telling my congregation that I am leaving so I pray for a smooth trainsition. If God leads you to it, He will lead you through it. So I am trying to be positive about the move for my husband and our daughters and, at the same time, trying to look ahead. So I welcome prayers and if anyone can tell me about Albuquerque- that would be cool!